28 August 2025
I've been watching a lot of YouTube videos about cults lately. Yesterday I was waiting for my roomate to do the dishes so I could reheat the free Chinese food that I got from my weird dash. While I was waiting I for some reason decided to listen to Jim Jones' final speech. For some reason that's on YouTube. It's interesting to hear a guy convince a bunch of people to kill themselves and for them to just go along with it. At some point a woman starts calmly arguing with him, and the rest of the people there yell at her. The whole time there are kids crying and screaming in the background because they were being fed poison by their own parents. For some reason whenever I think about Jonestown I get a specific image of the nursery at my old homeschool co-op in my head. Like a picture. Where the camera is in the upper corner of the room. I've never seen the room from that angle because I wasn't tall when I was a homeschooled child. This nursery was a church nursery. The co-op was secular but it was held in a church each Wednesday morning. The younger kids would be watched by the "nursery staff" (various parents who weren't teaching classes at the time). My dad was always in there until he assisted teaching a fun math class with his friend. I'm not sure why this specific image of the yellow brick nursery off to the side of a church dining room comes into my head when I think of Jonestown. I was not in a cult (although a friend's parent thought that I was). It's just a weird image association. I love that I still remember the layout of this random church that I never went to for worship, just for homeschool. A church that had a bunch of upstairs classrooms. Interesting stuff I think. Probably for the kids who are too young for service. I went to a church where the classes were in the basement when I was a kid. So I guess it isn't too weird to have multiple levels in a church. Churches are always pretty big. It's interesting.
I'll always get random lore drops about church and co-op and stuff from my dad because I'm an adult now. I was too young to be told any of this stuff at the time, but in the middle of homeschool co-op one of the parents was arrested for sleeping with their daughter's underage boyfriend. It's insane to me that stuff like that was going on. I love being seen as more of an equal than a child by my dad. I get access to forbidden info. I'm sure he doesn't want me to write any of this stuff on the internet, but I'm being really anonymous with the identities of everyone involved. I might have to start going to church again. I think I want to believe in something, but I'm not sure what. I'm not usually the kind of person who believes that kind of thing though. I ask too many questions. Although I do believe in ghosts to some extent. My roomate let one into the house a little over a week ago. He offered to mow our lawn. He's been able to do it, but he's dissapeared for extended amounts of time. The ghost also caused the dog to develop an illness. I initially thought the illness had something to do with a camera I bought on facebook, but that wasn't the case. Either way the dog is alright now, but the ghost came back last night while I was calling my girlfriend. Oh yeah speaking of my girlfriend I'm gonna see her today and I'm excited.
Speaking of the dog she sounds like she's freaking out right now. I bet I would be too if I was her.
Another thing I've been thinking about is the order of the nine angles and how they are clearly behind a lot of the school shootings that have been happening lately. I just can't bring this up to anyone I know in real life because they'll think I'm a crazy conspiracy theorist. I watch videos about conspiracy theories but I don't usually believe in them. All this nine angles stuff is happening in plain sight though. Real creepy stuff I think.